I noticed it's been a while since I posted anything on my blog. Today I was in church and was blown away by the sermon that my pastor delivered titled, "The Spirit of Excellence." The title alone had me going but what he said about letting go of our yesterdays was something that hit home for me.
He said that a lot of us live in yesterday. Whether it's good or bad. But we stay stuck on what happened and lose focus if we even have any on today and the future. A lot of us can't seem to move on from the bad things that once happened. He said that living in yesterday will ruin today and destroy your tomorrow! Wow!
As I vigorously took notes I thought of all the hurt feelings I had about my yesterdays. Whether it was a relationship gone bad, losing someone close, a friend tripping on me, etc thinking to myself...my God I could be ruining today and destroying my tomorrow.
In that one sermon I made a vow to myself to let go! It's so hard and the process isn't easy, but I have a bright and colorful future ahead of me and the last thing I want to do is destroy what God has in store for me by staying stuck in the past.
I prayed for a friend of mine (well once friend) that recently stopped talking to me. Not only was I cut off but so were other friends and even some family. Apparently she goes through spells of disconnecting herself with loved ones when she is either dating or in love. Returning when something goes wrong.
Yes I was initially mad that we are in our 30's and people still act like this but after today I had to tell her through my spirit good bye. I can't be upset that you got caught up and stopped talking to a bunch of us. I have so many things to do and if I stay stuck on being mad then weeks can go by and nothing will be resolved, work won't be done and I'm not about to hinder my gift of writing and my dreams for anyone.
I also thought about old loves...one in particular. I breathed with ease during the sermon that the ill feelings I once had towards him are really gone. Is that a good thing...no...it's great! Who wants to remain in limbo wondering about the would've, could've, should've. I had to let go of the fact that not only our relationship ended but that an 11 year friendship ended and may never be again which is fine. All of the words that stung in our final blows, insults, etc have fallen to the waist side. I truly believe that God put him in my life for a reason and a season and I thank him for that. No one wants to see a friend go and it end ugly, but learn from it, see what their purpose was and keep moving forward.
So I say all of this because someone out there will read my blog and be stuck. They wonder why their life isn't transforming after prayers and talks with God. Life is going by without them. It's because you need to get up, dust yourselves off and move on. Life has so much to offer and I don't want to ever be in a position again where I'm living in yesterday. So let's reminisce, learn, laugh about the past when there were good moments and even bad but look forward to bright futures, more funny times, accomplishing our dreams and being supportive of each other.
I hope today someone will read this and say...I'm letting go of yesterday. Peace.