Friday, November 2, 2012

Worry

(This was written a while ago as I was at a wall in my life) enjoy and be blessed.

Worry

Mom once told me to not worry too much
But I can't help it as bills pile up
Wanting to be the best mom while balancing my passion and work
It gets to me God, scared that I'm a paycheck from being on the street
Not wanting to give in to defeat
Trying to make sure there is food on the table for us to eat
Day by day I worry
Praying that you don't see my faith as weary
Blessings of a job came
I'm steadily trying to maintain
With a crazy pay cut I still remain faithful
One woman told me I had luck
Smiling to myself knowing it was deeper than the roll of dice
Despite my worry I know deep in my heart my luck was divine and precise
Remaining faithful I know that my job was a gift from you
So why do I still worry?
I guess it's because I'm humanly
Mold me to have faith like you
Don't stop instilling in me your continuous guidance that will see me through and through
Worry is fear and fear is worry
Praying it won't destroy my mental capacity
Peel the layers of devastation, fear, worry, pain and brokeness from me
Allow me to be the best that I can be
Strip this demonistic madness
So I can worry less
And focus
More on you
On my son
And the dreams I have so they can become true
Please be patient with me
God, don't give up
While I face this wall called...worry

Written By:

Serena Wills

September 24, 2012

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